woooosssaaahhhhhh

Not sure how to start this but here we go; I am so tired of people walking all over me. Harassing me, taking their aggression out on me, bossing me around, making me feel worthless and stupid etc.
This happens every day. and not just once or twice a day, about every hour. It happens from all sorts of people... co-workers, friends, family etc. Well, not as many friends because I do not think that is a friendship. But you get the point.
The reason I say this is because today I worked 12 hours without a break (I ran home to let dog out but then ran back to work). I stayed at my desk working through files, emails and phone calls. I managed to get a lot accomplished but I am feeling utterly down in the dumps. All I can think about is how people have been treating me. How people have bossed me around and told me what to do (which in turns makes me feel so stupid and worthless).
The more this goes on, the more and more I lack self-confidence. I HATE getting phone calls at work because who-ever is on the other end usually SUCCEEDS in making me feel stupid. Very rarely am I able to tell people off. Very Rarely am I able to say HEY! LISTEN to what I HAVE done instead of the things I need to work on.
I get a few "GOOD JOB" comments a month, but when a person is criticized more and more... it wears them down. As such: ME currently.
When I wake up, I have all this motivation to accomplish things, to get things done, to mark things off my list etc. but by time I get home, or even after an hour after working... I feel like nothing matters because I am not going to satisfy anything. So, in turn, I come home and sit on the couch, utterly miserable. I go to bed early, I wake up early and do it all again. Weekends roll around and I normally have so much planned that I am unable to complete anything on my actual to-do list. OR there is nothing planned and I try to relax when I have a chance.... lose-lose situation.
So, since my self-confidence has been run down completely... I am not able to tell people WHAT is REALLY going on... or tell them NO, I will not do that OR NO, that is YOUR job, not MINE.... get it? well, welcome to my life.
This is my rant. I am going to get ready for bed now... yep, not even 8pm and ready for bed. Awesome.

*sigh