emotionally past limits

I have not written in awhile and I am very sorry. It has been a crazy month. And it is not over. This week I have had my eye on a car and I was determined to make that work but no one was available to go with me and that just got frustrating. I went to last resort and called mom and she really really brought me down. Like, I was full out tears. She just brought me down to her level. and that is what hurt most. I KNOW I could have done it alone, but I wanted someone with me, not to do the talking, but to support and she could not even do that, but she did manage to bring me down to a complete disaster today. I need a car, its not just a want anymore. When I am driving down the road when it is raining, I should not have to feel water hit me. Today I went out to my car (this morning) and started emptying it out and when I looked in my backseat, I had no LESS than 2 inches of standing water on the floor. Literally. I can feel it falling apart when I drive. Well, we are having bad weather, so maybe it will blow away and I can just file an insurance claim then....
I am starting to hate my job because I took on the sister so it has become EXTREMELY confusing. I just feel like I am stepping on toes everywhere now. I am really good at my store but taking on this other store is just too much. I am happy for the hours, but its killing me. I want a full time job. A job where I have a set schedule and will be home everynight at the same time. A job where I am appreciated. I am so frustrated.
On a happier note; Grant and I are so happy together and we are doing so great living together. We have had a few toe-stepping-on issues, but it goes away so fast. I love him.
Alright, well, I am emotionally exhausted.
Peace.