career, music and nerves

hey there, been awhile... sorry. A LOT has happened so I hope I can explain everything.
This past weekend was pure hell for me, at least I had my bf there to cheer me up and keep me in higher spirits. Friday, Got the call  that I did NOT get the library job. This majorly depressed me. Then Saturday I got the letter from the grad school of social work, and it said that they did not accept me. So my depression suck deeper. I actually kind of blew up on my mom and walked out on our ice cream gathering thing... I burst into tears in the car and couldnt stop. two rejections in such a short time, it really hit hard and I am still struggling to raise my head again. on Sunday, I went through careerbuilder and monster sites and applied to SO MANY jobs... I have an interview a week from friday; to do laundry at a senior home... but my image is that it will provide money, and an opportunity to go up in a company... so we will see.
I have also been doing a lot of thinking about going back to the youth homes where I did my internship. I know that it really stressed me out, but I think that is because I was working long hours nonstop and I did not get much break from it. I think that I could really make a difference there and I could also work my way up there as well. I could always work a few hours there, a few hours at the mall and a few hours at the laundry thing... I mean, it would tire me out FAST, but since I am not going back to school... I am done, so I might as well jump into as many jobs possible. I have a lot of debt and I do not want that hanging over my head for 50 years... and I can work hard when I am young rather than old. I can also work my way up with more experience in different fields... ya know? omg, i just dont know!
Also, tonight is my honors presentation and I am so nervous and nervous that I could burst into tears omg. I know the information but I HATE TALKING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE. OMG OMG OMG OMG.
I am not really sure what else to tell you. I have just over a week left of classes and then finals which will be easy because I have mostly presentations and only a few tests but those will be easy, I HOPE.  and then graduation. which I think we have all figured out.. I think?  I am excited to wear my friggin awesome dress and look hot for everyone lol :P
Uhm, I really do not know what else I was going to say... I am almost done with everything this semester and its kind of weird being so close to being done. This summer I will be taking an online class, and two independent classes, which should not be too bad; read the book and take a test online... I could handle that! I hope, again. and then come July (ish) I will be done with all classes and just be working. Also in late July:: Grant and I will be looking at other places to live because we both want something different; our own new space together. This past weekend was funny cause he was talking about all the things he wants in a new place and it was funny... just the way he says things like that... silly boy. gotta love him!!
Alright, I need to get ready for classes... ah!
Also, I am in love with mumford and sons :)) check them out.
The Cave: Mumford and Sons

and!
little lion man:: mumford and sons

These are two of my FAVORITE SONGS!!!!! (their biggest hits lol)

Anyways, enjoy.
Peace.